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Today is our anniversary, my husband and I were married 14 years ago today.  Our journey since that day has not been a normal one – we met and married later in life and for both of us our lives did not ever follow what would be anything close to normal.   By the grace of God, we met and married.   And it was by God’s grace entirely, an answer to earnest prayers.
It is also the anniversary of my cancer diagnosis one year ago.  The journey over the past year has been difficult.  It still seems like a nightmare that I will awake from, saying “I just had the most horrible dream…”.   There are so many ironies and so much growth and new opportunities that have come from and through the past year, it seems unbelievable.    I have learned to trust, both God and the people He has surrounded me with, and lean into Him sometimes to a depth I never knew was possible before.  He has shown His love for me so clearly I can feel it, I can feel His arms around me as He is saying “I am here, I have got you, I won’t let go, don’t be afraid.”, at times when it seemed the world around me would never be the same.
And the world never will be the same, it never is the same.  It constantly changes, and will all fall away.
 “The grass withers and the flowers fall,
    but the word of our God endures forever.” 
Isaiah 40:8
Only God remains unchanging.
He is the rock I stand upon.

This is not what I had planned to write today…but here it is.  Stay tuned, and save your fork – the best is yet to come!

LOVE.